2nd Monthsary

I had an awesome second monthsary with my boy. :) He loved the gift I made. I made him an album scrapbook-like thingy. I took pictures of the pages like one-by-one but my stupid retarded phone won't connect to my laptop. :( I'll post the pictures as soon as I can. He got me a pretty ring and bracelet. Today was awesome because we spent the entire day together.

I went to JP to watch Calvin perform. It was good. Though I must admit the host was annoying. Her voice and accent was driving me insane in a bad way. BUT when I heard her sing... Ohmygod lawa her voice. Amal and Dolly were there too! :) When the performances were boring, Saf took me on the available rides. We went on the merry-go-round thing... I know there's a name to it... starts with a 'C' but I can't remember.... :S And we went on that boat thing. And that's all... 'Cos I didn't wanna go on bumper cars. :P I'm a party pooper. :S

I saw a lot of familiar faces such as the lovely Bridgette and Richmond, Javen and Jovita and more more more people. :) Went home early 'cos I'm a good girl. Anyhoo~ I wanna sleep now. Good night.

Philoshophy of Love

I've written about Love before in an old post and in that particular post I stated that people try to be William Shakespeare when it comes to talking and describing love. It's true. If you read any blog, there is bound to be a post dedicated to the world's most famous and favourite topic; Love.

Every story has this theme of love. It's essential in stories, romance is something everyone wants. Those who have tasted it, demand more. Those who have never had it, desire it. The bible talks about love too. Love of a father, a mother, a son, a daughter, a lover, a friend. The bible actually contains the most famous and meaningful love quotes in the world. Such as,

'Love Keeps No Record of Wrongs'
(1 Corinthians 13:5)

'Love is always patient; love is always kind; love is never envious or arrogant with pride. Nor is she conceited.'
( 1 Corinthians 13:4)

The problem is that nowadays, love such as described in the bible is nowhere to be found. It's lost. We have used the word 'love' to such an extent that it has lost its special meaning. We toss it around like a football. We throw it around like a bastketball. We say it to every Tom, Dick and Harry. But do we mean it? Do we even know what 'love' means?

Taken from wordnet.princeton.edu/perl/webwn: - 

• a strong positive emotion of regard and affection; "his love for his work"; "children need a lot of love"
• any object of warm affection or devotion; "the theater was her first love"; "he has a passion for cock fighting";
• have a great affection or liking for; "I love French food"; "She loves her boss and works hard for him"
• beloved: a beloved person; used as terms of endearment
• get pleasure from; "I love cooking"
• a deep feeling of sexual desire and attraction; "their love left them indifferent to their surroundings"; "she was his first love"
• be enamoured or in love with; "She loves her husband deeply"
• a score of zero in tennis or squash; "it was 40 love"
• sleep together: have sexual intercourse with; "This student sleeps with everyone in her dorm"; "Adam knew Eve"; "Were you ever intimate with this man?"
• sexual love: sexual activities (often including sexual intercourse) between two people; "his lovemaking disgusted her"; "he hadn't had any love in months"; "he has a very complicated love life"

It does not just have ONE meaning; it really depends on how you use it.

These days, people link the word love with sexuality. We're confusing Love with Lust. Love doesn't necessarily have to do with sexuality. If it's true love then it's the kind of feeling where you're life is complete. It's when everything falls in its place. Suddenly you know why you're here, in this place, in this time. That kind of feeling.

People say the greatest act of love is sacrifice. I find fault in this. Why sacrifice? If one must sacrifice for another, how is that fair? How is that love? Why would a lover want his/her partner to sacrifice something his/her partner loves doing? I feel that the greatest act of Love is compromise. That way it's not selfish and both sides win. Isn't that way better instead of having BIG fights because somewhere on the journey of Love, one partner decides it's all the other ones' fault that he/she had to sacrifice something? It's just my opinion.

Here's what Esther wrote in a recent email -

"you really truly know that your guy loves you if he's willing to embarrass himself in public for yah.

hahaha :P what a philosophy of love to live on by."

She's brilliant and this makes so much sense. No one likes being embarrassed, it's a horrible feeling. You get hot all over and you turn bright red, everyone tries to avoid embarrassing themselves. Like Duh~ So when a guy/girl goes to the extremes to win your heart or to just show his/her affections then you know that somewhere in this crazy person he/she truly does love you.

Of course Love isn't all that perfect. It's not meant to be until you find Mr/Mrs Right. And until then, you're going to go through heartbreaks. That's normal; we have to go through pain in order to understand Love. The ups and downs of a relationship are the tools that teach us the true meaning of Love. If everything always goes right for couples then how will they cope when one day everything just goes down within seconds? It is the lessons we learned in dealing with problems during previous relationships that help us make our next relationship better, stronger and more lasting.

Not everyone believes in Love though. Personally I think it's a shame to miss out on such a complicated yet thrilling experience.

I copied and pasted this from my other blog. Yea, that's the reason I haven't been updating much. I have a new blog butI'm not giving that link out. No way Jose. :P

Ok

I got myself a twitter account. 

CLICK!

This is all thanks to Becky! :)

PS, Bex come over sooooonnnnn!

Marie Digby

i'm infected it's like a disease
like poison, you touched me, my heartbeat
it's spreading so sweetly
what are you thinking.. when we're this close?
i count on the space that i keep
guards up in towers they're watching, they're waiting
don't hurt me
the walls that protect me, keep me inside
i hate it when we say goodbye
alone for the rest of the night ... without you

tonight, i am waiting for you
to call me when you're not supposed to
i've been trying to send you signs
the doors to me are hard to find
so stop me, stop me, this time...

you kiss me goodnight on the cheek
each time it gets closer to my lips
or am i imagining
the parking lot's empty
so kiss me again

i hate it when we say goodbye
alone for the rest of the night without you

tonight, i am waiting for you
to call me when you're not supposed to
i've been trying to send you signs
the doors to me are hard to find
so stop me, stop me this time..

i've been trying to send you signs
the doors to me are so hard to find
so stop me, stop me, stop me, stop me this time..

A spotlight's shining brightly
On my face
And I can't see a thing
And yet I feel you , looking my way

An empty stage
With nothing but this girl
Who's singing this simple melody
And wearing her heart on her sleeve
And right now...

I have you
For a moment I can tell I've got you
Cause your lips don't move
And something is happening
Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you.

Beauty emanates from every word that you say
And capture the deepest thoughts
In the purest and simplest of ways
But you see
I'm not that graceful like you
Nor am I as eloquent
But just a simple melody
Can change the way that you see me
And right now..

I have you
For a moment I can tell I've got you
Cause your lips don't move
And something is happening
Cause your eyes tell me the truth
I've put a spell over you..

All my life I stumble
But up here I am just perfect
Perfect as i'll ever be...

Theres a girl
Who sits under the bleachers
Just another day eating alone
And though she smiles
There is something she's hiding
And she cant find a way to relate
She just goes unnoticed
As the crowd passes by
And she'll pretend to be busy
When inside she just wants to cry
She'll say...

(Chorus)

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder, I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take another look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day
When you'll ask her her name

In the beginning, in the first weeks of class
She did everything to try and fit in
But the others they couldnt seem to get past all the things that mismatched on the surface
And she would close her eyes when they laughed and she fell down the stairs
And the more that they joked
And the more that they screamed
She retreated to where she is now
And she'll sing...

(Chorus)

Take a little look at the life of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little closer I really really want you to put yourself in her shoes
Take a little look at the face of Miss Always Invisible
Look a little harder and maybe then you will see why she waits for the day that you will ask her...her name

And one day just the same as the last
Just the days spent in counting the time
Came a boy who sat under the bleachers just a little bit further behind...

Maybe one day.

Do you know what happens when you take me for granted?

You get to watch as I leave.

"Love" fades pretty quickly 'cos it's really just infatuation.

Oh Dear~

SOCIOLOGY exam is in a few hours and what am I doing?

Reading FMLs.

Oh Dear Lord.

Iloveyou

Hand in Hand.

You make me smile.
You make me cry.
You make me laugh.
You make me blush.
You make me feel all sorts of emotions.
That's how it's supposed to be.
That's how I like it.

We've been tested constantly.
We've passed every test with flying colours.
We've come out smiling after every challenge that has been thrown at us.
We've been through more challenges then any 2 year+ relationship.

Best friends to lovers.

Sometimes I'm difficult, I can't deny it.
Sometimes you say things without thinking, you can't deny it.
Sometimes I hurt you, sometimes you hurt me.
We can't deny this.

We know each other so well. It feels as though we've been friends for centuries.
We know each other so well. We finish each other's sentences.

Love, you caught me by surprise.
Love, we fit perfectly together.
Love, I wouldn't have us any other way.


sometimes it's hard to believe that someone can actually feel love for me.